Our guest at The Mudroom today is Tammy Perlmutter, Founder and Curator of this space, and--among so many other things--our resident expert on longing. Tammy’s journey is a mixture of heartbreak and hope--including childhood abuse--so we want to issue a trigger warning here. But, as Tammy expresses here, there is also God’s beautiful redemption arc--and for her, it’s made all the difference. Enter in with us as we parallel pieces of the Christmas story in the early chapters of Luke, from Elizabeth’s longing for one child to the prophetess Anna’s joy over beholding another --the Messiah--at his temple dedication. And his mother Mary’s contemplation of it all. There’s no one else I know who embodies all of these longings as Tammy does--or who more clearly follows its leading to Him. Lean in now for her incredible story . . .
"I felt a mother-want about the world,
And still went seeking, like a bleating lamb
Left out at night, in shutting up the fold,–
As restless as a nest-deserted bird
Grown chill through something being away, though what
It knows not."
Elizabeth Barrett Browning, Aurora Leigh, 1864
“If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world. If none of my earthy pleasures satisfy it, that does not prove that the universe is a fraud. Probably earthly pleasures were never meant to satisfy it, but only to arouse it, to suggest the real thing. ... I must keep alive in myself the desire for my true country, which I shall not find till after death; I must never let it get snowed under or turned aside; I must make it the main object of life to press on to that other country and help others to do the same." C. S. Lewis, Mere Christianity